Unless I manage to take something really fantastic, I don't think I'll ever be submitting here again. Don't count on it. Not enough people seem to care and after being crushed by the lack of feedback from some pictures I thought were great, I don't think I could go through that all again. It's been an odd run with DeviantART, and I think I'll check back on my page every once in a while, but for the most part, I must bid DA a farewell.

With every passing day, I find my motivation to take pictures dwindling more and more. Times were once that I couldn't get enough of it. Did I burn myself perhaps? I always looked to posting my pictures on DeviantART for peer review and inspiration. Just a few weeks ago, I posted pictures that I thought were some of my best work. But no one cared, really. That shot me down really hard. Without some positive feedback, any feedback, I can hardly know if I can go on. I want to say that I'm taking pictures for myself, that I'm creating art, but what good is this art if no one is there to appreciate it? I see my best work ignored and god, does it depress me. I wanted to take pictures for a living one day but now I don't know what I'm going to do....I feel so very lost....

Well it's a little less than two days before I go on that cross country trip. Hopefully I'll be able to get some good pictures. I don't know why though, but I've been way off my game lately. Maybe it's my lack of motivation....

The girl in my recent favorite additions in the picture "summer of thick blonde" has such a warm, beautiful face. I wonder if that's the same face I've been seeing in my dreams, the one I keep falling in love with. I had another one last night. This time we were sitting in an opera house watching something. She leaned over and kissed me and my god, how great it felt, how my heart quickened because of it. Her lips were the softest thing I ever felt. I wonder if I keep dreaming this because I so desperately long for it in reality?

The girl in my recent favorite additions in the picture "summer of thick blonde" has such a warm, beautiful face. I wonder if that's the same face I've been seeing in my dreams, the one I keep falling in love with. I had another one last night. This time we were sitting in an opera house watching something. She leaned over and kissed me and my god, how great it felt, how my heart quickened because of it. Her lips were the softest thing I ever felt. I wonder if I keep dreaming this because I so desperately long for it in reality?